"et ta main dans ma main"

Mystery of You

2010-10-14T14:02:00.001-07:00

I remember my younger days fondly
So much was beyond me
So much yet unknown
Like a child I created my places
And filled up my pages
With poems and prose
Life untasted lay stretched out before me
A child in awe of Your glory
You are the Great Mystery
Calling me endlessly deeper to love You
And I will answer with reckless abandoning
Everything keeping me from You
I could never unravel the mystery of You
Now I'm older and sharing my world
With a beautiful girl
Who's the love of my life
More and more I pack life into boxes
And wonder who watches
The poems I write
But You're still the question my heart longs to answer
A debtor in search of the Master
More than I know
Or I could imagine, You are

Workout. Bagels. Laundry. Cleaning. School. Jobs.

2010-05-11T09:41:00.001-07:00

this is the very last week of school. what to do. what to do.

Note: Newsong -In times of suffering

2010-04-22T16:56:00.001-07:00

We, your sons & daughters
live for you, the Perfect Father
Return our lives to you
When all you say and do
Is just you being you
So faithful
When famine and flood are near,
You're replacing hope and love for fear
When death is at my doorstep
You hold my heart
You pursue me tho the waters
Keep rising ever higher
Thru earthquake and fire
Your comforting word
and peace is always near/here

Gretsch's are my new obsession =)

2010-04-08T21:54:00.001-07:00

Gretsch 3700

i really want this haha

2010-04-01T12:14:00.001-07:00

http://sfbay.craigslist.org/sby/msg/1669558780.html

kdrama

2010-03-30T22:49:00.001-07:00

Dramas:

1 - You're Beautiful

2 - ?

3 - ?

i have an extra class to attend....

2010-02-12T10:21:00.001-08:00

http://www.nscddconline.com/geicosenior/

lookover

2010-02-07T12:56:00.000-08:00

I thought this was quite a provoking thought from a great thought leader on the tension of 'The Worship Industry'. This definitely creates more questions than answers for those of us 'Worship Leaders'. We can tend to be suckers for the 'feeling' and when it's not experienced there are many things we are quick to blame. I think we are doing ourselves and our communities a disservice when we allow the barometer of our experiences to become an industry of good feelings.

The real art is creating environments that are engaging and yet honest in their every intent. It is quite the tension. I really do think I carry a heart to create environments in which we worship honestly. I love gatherings that allow me/us to live in light of our wins and our struggles/failures. I think we need to expose both with equal value, it's real life. Honest worship is the lament and the praise. The bowed down low and the lifted high. Recognizing our failures help us know how to celebrate our wins at another level. Recognizing, together, that we're all in the same boat and life isn't always a sugar coated treat is so important in our churches. People are sick, people are well, people are winning, people are losing, people fail and people succeed. This is the teeter totter of life and in all things Christ is making a way to bring glory to the Father in our ins and our outs. Following Jesus is not always as easy as we sometimes wish it could be, it's a journey. It's a long journey of consistent dependence on Christ, He is the Hope of Glory and we must lean into him in every season.

Worship Leaders: Do you feel like your environments and mindset provide a place for you to break the mold of 'The Worship Industry' which has it's roots in pleasing the consumer? Are you finding it a task to sing things true of the reality of what it looks like to follow Jesus? What songs are you singing that bring out the lament and what songs bring out the praise? Is the art we're creating really art or are we writing songs to produce the consumer feeling? Is the art we're offering our communities really art or is it just an attempt at evoking that 'feeling' that we like, on one side or the other.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nPRKCmYuCWA&feature=player_embedded

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3K4fveLQZZQ&feature=player_embedded

i've become lazy to post here ever since i started my tumblr account. hopefully i can make this...

2010-01-29T23:27:00.000-08:00

a more normal scheduled update.
i started school this past week and whoooooOOooo its been alot of stuff to process.
not that i havent been through it before, but i was never really good at being a college student so i'm
trying my best as of late.

in the downtimes, i've been using my new laptop but its been messing up
so i brought it with me back to san jose to use for studying and to
try to figure out what went wrong with it. i'm seriously considering buying a macbook in the future.
maybe that will solve my tech problem. but of course thats not gonna happen anytime soon.
this year, i will have a new guitar. that was something i shouldve done years ago, but
never really saved enough or tried to save enough. this year is a lot of firsts for me.
new stories to be written, as Don Miller said. there will be areas of this year where i won't
remember what happened unless i write it down for memory's sake.
i've gained different friends and lost countless bad habits and
increased my appetite for food and for faith.
growing and maturing has been my goal for the past 3 years and its steadily, slowly been
coming to a point. still, there is always more room for increase.
i'm enjoying this... my youthful outlook on life. not having much to worry about just yet, which in some
moments have alarmed me, but i think about God and life in general and what have i that hasn't been given to me
and can in the next instant, be taken away. fleeting. my trips to target have been for food and i've
strived not to spend on unnecessary things and to make other things last for as long as i can.

well, im going to update my computer some more and then hopefully get some studying done
and maybe catch an episode of either Community or Human Target... bonsoir nuit!

btw, my class schedule is monday through thursday but i have online classes so that means i get to
work on the computer most of the time. i still have to set up few add-ons but after that,
everything should be well and i can start a workout schedule and maybe an easy job or something on the side.

preference

2009-12-11T01:06:00.000-08:00

i'm not great at html. not really as savvy as my brother or sister or my friends haha.
i only know a few shortcuts :)

RELEVANT Magazine - 7 Burning Issues: Gay Rights

2009-12-04T16:29:00.001-08:00

RELEVANT Magazine - 7 Burning Issues: Gay Rights

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a week of studying

2009-11-18T15:12:00.001-08:00

so here we are again.
end of the semester and anxious for the next set of classes!
but wait. there's more.
find a job. record songs.
and make time to do things you've never done before.
let's start with the basics. homework first.
then let's play afterwards.

humility

2009-11-18T13:05:00.000-08:00

"when you're full of yourself, God can't fill you. but when you empty yourself, God has a useful vessel."
-max lucado

selflessness. not selfishness.
encouraging. not discouraging.
hopefulness. not hopelessness.
to love and not hate.

♥

Love - Musiqsoulchild

2009-11-16T19:05:00.000-08:00

Love
So many things I've got to tell you
But I'm afraid I don't know how
Cause there's a possibility
that you'll look at me differently
Love
Ever since the first moment I spoke your name
From then on I knew that by you being in my life
Things were destined to change cause

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
Those who have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joys and hurts
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first

Many days I've longed for you
Wanting you
Hoping for the chance to get to know you
Longing for your kiss
For your touch, your feel, your Presence
Many nights I've cried from the things you do
Felt like I could die from the thought of losing you
I know that you're real
With no doubts and no fears
And no questions

At first you didn't mean that much to me, no
But now I know that you're all I need, oh
The world looks so brand new to me
Now that I found love
Everyday I live for you, yeah
And everything that I do
I do it for you
What I say is how I feel so I believe it's true
You got to know I'm true

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
But,those who have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joys and hurts
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first

"1 John 4:8"
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hi.
new songs and old songs,
& more videos forthcoming.
trying to stimulate the brain is akin to a full time job. (at least for me it is...)

tell yourself to have a nice week!
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if my heart stops beating, then what else is it good for?

2009-10-30T21:41:00.000-07:00

battles happen everyday.

"from the same mouth come both blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be this way. - James 3:10 (NASB)"

to me, this means one or the other...
James says, "my brethren..."
in reference to fellow believers...
to the people he considers family in Christ.

personally,
do my words bless others, at all times? nope.
do i curse people sometimes? yep
am i an idiot sometimes? yep.

may my words reflect my passions
that my faith would precede my flesh
and my heart would beat from my sleeves...
if i'm caught in my own ego, forgive me
Lord, bring me back to the place i once was
to the beginning of my new life
replace these poisonous stings
with healing and refreshing
recharging and encouraging words
may these words reflect my passions
and my faith precede my flesh
and my heart to burst from these sleeves...

this is how we know...

2009-10-29T14:03:00.001-07:00

testing comes in different ways,
through different people,
and throughout different circumstances.
but the desired result is always strengthening
and a re-affirmation upon the beneficial thoughts and
convictions we already have.

God help me not to stray from my desire to see You lifted above all else.
May I never forget Your love and that You would fill me with Your wisdom.

The day i found out....

2009-10-29T12:35:00.000-07:00

Salutations!

It has been a year of surprises and heartaches.
in recent news, my favorite band is breaking up,
but not before they have a farewell tour, thank God!
and i can't wait to see what they'll do afterwards, individually...
but they've done so much already.
they could retire and my heart would be at peace.

so anyways, here's to the last 9 years!
cheers to aaron, brian, james, jon, and stephen!